Ballad for a Dead Lover

Oh, I loved you wrong Loved you wild, loved you jealous Now I sing this song To the silence where your breath is

You checked my eyes like they were windows Searching for a name I never said I checked your phone like it was scripture Reading ghosts inside my head

We were fire in a small room Two hearts fighting for the flame You said, “Who was that?” I said, “Nobody,” But nobody still became a name

We were too proud to say we’re scared Too young to call it pain Now I talk to empty air And it never says my name

This is a ballad for a dead lover Dead lover, dead lover I should’ve held you softer Not pushed you under thunder

This is a ballad for a dead lover Dead lover, come back, come back I was jealous of the whole world Now the whole world’s what I lack

Come back, come back I swear I know better Come back, come back My love, my dead lover

You hated how they looked at me I hated every smile you gave We turned a little jealousy Into something we couldn’t save

You wore my shirt the night you left Rain on your face, pride in your chest I thought you’d call me by the morning Now I call your name instead

We were too proud to say we’re scared Too hurt to take the blame Now I sleep beside your absence And it whispers like a flame

This is a ballad for a dead lover Dead lover, dead lover I should’ve held you softer Not pushed you under thunder

This is a ballad for a dead lover Dead lover, come back, come back I was jealous of the whole world Now the whole world’s what I lack

If heaven has a window Look down and see me cry I’d trade every fight we had For one more jealous lie

This is a ballad for a dead lover Dead lover, dead lover I should’ve kissed you longer I should’ve loved you stronger

This is a ballad for a dead lover Dead lover, come back, come back I was jealous of forever Now forever’s dressed in black