Insane Feelings
Ballad for a Dead Lover
Noon broke over the city He walked out of work alone I followed every footstep Like a secret of my own He climbed a silent building I stayed hidden on the stairs When the door opened before him My own reflection waited there
She had my mouth She had my hands She held him like she understood What I could never plan
I should have spoken I should have tried Before the dream opened And swallowed me alive I should have told him Before I disappeared Now I’m lost in the dark Where nothing feels clear
They kissed beneath the streetlights They laughed into the night I watched my other body Take the place I kept inside Then she walked to my doorway Like she knew my every key She lay down in my bedroom Like she had always been me
The hallway mirror called me I looked, but I was gone His face was in the silver His shadow moving on
I should have spoken I should have tried Before the dream opened And swallowed me alive I should have told him Before I disappeared Now I’m lost in the dark Where nothing feels clear
Maybe this would not be broken Maybe this would not be real If I had tried to speak to him Before I forgot how to feel